Hello beautiful world! Happy 2015!
One of my goals for 2015 is to spend more time writing, and thus, more time blogging… I’ve discovered what a balm writing is for anxiety and over-thinking and just processing life! And I love the opportunity to create a community, and a context for processing life — together!
As part of my 500 hour yoga certification process (through Samudra Global School of Living Yoga), I had to do an embodiment project. It is exactly the same process that I did for my 200 hours; you take “before” pictures, at the beginning of your training, and “end” pictures and the completion, and look with a compassionate and energetic eye at the shifts and evolution. So the pictures above show my “end” photo for my 200 hour certification in 2008, as my “beginning” for my 300 hour training (to bring me to 500), and the second picture was just taken on Friday as my “end” photo.
And all I really want to share today, is what I realized when I saw these photos side-by-side: the heart opens. It grows. It evolves. It gets softer. And more free. It doesn’t happen by trying to crank it open day after day. It doesn’t necessarily happen by “deciding” to open it. But it does open. It doesn’t get more open only when life is easy — trust me, the past 2 years of my life have been crazy!! (had a THIRD baby, got a promotion managing an awesome yoga team, my husband quit his job and started a new business, fought a lawsuit…) So it wasn’t vacation-city around here. But it happened none-the-less, and perhaps BECAUSE of the challenges. Because I sought relief, because my shadows can fears came right up to greet me, because I felt lost and at times alone, and needed something greater than me to guide me, my heart opened. Because the heart is the wisdom master. The heart is our true center, our true “mind.”
What processes did I use to discover this? I read inspiring books — check out Pema Chodron — ALL her books, and “talks” are great. I practiced yoga — check out Shiva Rea‘s DVDs — they’re a great way to get embodied. I invested in some help from wisdom/love gurus. I started talking about my struggles and my process, and discovered that I was truly not alone, that many of my friends and acquaintances were facing similar challenges. I went through the regimen. I practiced meditation — check out Jill Satterfield’s 2 guided meditation albums. I committed to Ayurvedic self-care practices, I did a 365 day gratitude practice. I continued to explore my spiritual life and my faith. I got stronger, more grounded, more FORGIVING — of myself and others, more compassionate.
The fact is, there is nothing that I did that anyone on this planet couldn’t also do, and I hope in the next year to share more of what I’ve learned, and what I’ve continued to learn, to help those who wish to open their hearts too, so if that’s you, welcome. I am making a commitment to you. Is your heart ready?
So here’s your inspiration for the day. It comes from a Marianne Williamson book I just started reading called “A year in Miracles.”
“It is not the love given to me by others, but only the love that I myself provide, that will save me today from suffering. I call to mind any person from whom I have been withholding love or forgiveness, or situation from which I have been withholding faith in miracles, and surrender said thoughts for healing.”
Bless you on your path, and bless your beautiful heart.
Om! Amen! Hallelujah!